unclear.

those are titles, we probably never did get there. i was attached emotionally to you, i felt empty when werent around, i doubt you felt e same. i dont know why, but yea, probably we were never that closed. as mention, you know you can find me when you needed someone, but i realise, i couldnt find you when i needed someone. this kept ringing in my mind, though i tried to cover and live through it, i cant.

end up i have learn that, i shouldnt get emotionally attached to anyone. at least i wont feel empty, nor even hurt. probably this thing called friendship are not e way i think its supposed to be. i dont know if this thinking of mine cost my last r/s, or its e last r/s that cause me this way. or i probably just suck at this area, didnt try hard enough or take it more easy.

thus i decided to just, cant be bothered.

why do i feel i have been waiting for my entire life? either it didnt happen, or there is actually nothing?

“a clear answer is like a key to many locks. it relieves us from many complications and confusions.”